young poet

never imagined i would stumble accross this poem.i thought it was lost with time.i wrote this when i was in 10th std,which wud make me 15 years old.gosh! i was such a hopeless romantic!
haha.never knew how that much of optamism could turn into pessimism over time and settle down to realism. well here it goes!

emotional lover

i am an emotional lover,

you could be,the world could be

rarer the species we are

more promising than any1 by far

love takes another turn with us

would you love me, from dawn to dusk?

i am an emotional lover,

emotions are wound,when we are around

non like the oceans beauty seen so far

we may b ugly,but we love u,we are known for it all

true,i heard love is blind

now do u like me,would u b so kind?

i am an emotional lover.

who is this i see,is it thee?

you came,i made no noise

you whispered in my ear with poise

tears stroll down my eyes

why do u tell me,nothin but lies?

i am an emotional lover,

how to prove to u,a daunting task

but i still love you.

you passed,after whisper,never to look back

what makes u look at her,the qualities i lack?

be true,for goodness sake

to whoever you choose,dont b a fake.

i am an emotional lover.

you never recognized me,never will thee

to whom u love is an innocent glass doll

shell break,when shell learn the truth at all

to me your Daniel,eyes so blue by time

but i love u,i WILL you were mine

i am an emotional lover

i cried whole night,you never to move from my sight.

now ill end my woeful story

about a girl who thought and dram

that she was special,an emotional lover

I AM.

My heart's road

its been forever since i wrote my last blog post.each reason being very diffrent from the next. yet a friend told me to write,despite what people say.a lot has happened over this past year.we claim to have changed though in the end we all know we never change.we still are the same person we are beneath.

our lifes road has always been a matter of discussion. most of us are lucky to go further than others.for some, its tragically cut short.i never thought it would matter who walks amongst us on our road as long as we have company to get through the day,despite different destinations.

so what will you do,when u realize that the person u walked with is not a part of the same journey any more? would you feel happy...good riddence? or feel empty? or if your 1 of the unlucky undecisive ones...feel both?

"my heart bleeds
you leaving me there,
all alone,on the street
with no concern or care,
leaving me alone,standing in the heat.

'for whom are you waiting for?'
the passers by asked
'they are late,1 will come,or more'
standing sadly,the truth i masked.

my heart bleeds
for you show no remorse,
in your pitiful deed
leaving me alone,on lifes course."

a friend once told me "dont make a space in your heart for somebody who doesnt wanna b in it"
sounds smart?
literally,yes
practically,no

so what will you do? choose to live a non-existant life and hope that one day,in our junction through life,we find some1? OR
we make our future,follow a path which is easy and less-lonely,yet in the process loose yourself coz u lost a part of your identity in the way?

robert frost had his issues on the road less taken.my issue is do we really miss out on an experiance or save us from the bad experiances of the road unknown.

what would you have done?

DREAM DESTINY

dearest blogger people! :D
im back into my universe! :D i knw its been a loong time since ive written and i throughly am apologetic...
heres whats happening now!
1) my ultimate FINAL EXAMS are up in 5 days and they r a BIG DEAL coz this is the deciding factor for all my hard work of 4 yrs... im gonna b a dentist soon guys!!!
2) life is like a stand stil during exam prep week...eat..sleep..study..watch movie...eat..sleep..study...thats how it is..and thats why i decided to break the monotony by this post!
3) whoever r giving exams with me..(let it be in any sphere) ...i wish u all the very best best best!!!
we all will come out in flying colors and will prove it to whoever who never believed in us that "yes bitches...we made it...and u dint! :P " haha...joking :D
tc... and for my sneaky classmates who make fun of my blog :P ....suck it :P ...serial no 13 specially :P hahahhaa..
lots of loves! :D
simran

deal or no deal

looking back on the past couple of days...i realized how wierd life could be....sometimes i think i am the luckiest girl in the world...and the other times i think that i am walking towards my own doom...somtimes i think i have nothin to loose...and other times i think...ive lost all already...so much so ...that i have nothin to give to the world..what could i possibly give?...im a recluse...an exhausted commodity...
how could anybody be so confused?? i thot confusion was ment for teenagers...spare me that shit..etc

though i guess life has just started....confusion is just part of the deal..??

luck by chance????

i have alwayz been a pesemistic person in terms of my luck...i alwayz hoped for the worst...and neither i believed any good cud come out of me being spontaneous...luking at the trashy luck i alwayz had...due to which..i alwayz planned for the future..alwayz had a plan b...
if this happens...what shud i do???...if that happens...what can i do??? ...my mind buzzes wit the wierdest of thoughts...
one of my friends told me to be honest about myself...to be an open book...so that no1 can cause me pain..coz the truth is out anywyz....well heres my truth...
"my biggest fear is that i would turn out to b a trashy dentist...."
yes yes...go laugh it out....it sounds soo corny..i knw....yet it still remains to be the biggest cause of all my nightmares i get at night....
yet today...!!! ....when i thought that it was any ordinary day....I GOT A COMPLETE DENTURE PATIENT!!?!!!! ....totally unexpected..since i never was givin anything to me in my life...i alwayz had to earn it....and today...for the 1st time...i was givin..by the department of prosthodontics!!!

i also have wierd panic attacks when i see a patient..specially my patients!!! ...and today..for the 1st time..i was calm...and composed...i took the impressions in 1 go..and wow...wat a beautiful impression it was....
today was indeed a day of celebration..coz it was my day of luck... :) and i did celebrate..with my dearest friend..coz it was THE DAY...the day when luck struck by chance :) :)

deep down

there was a girl...walking in the darkness...searching for light...all she saw was the reflection of the sun through the moon...through the forest leaves....through the puddle mud...
not realizing where her daze led her to,she fell into a ground well....those kinda wells arent surrounded by walls...they r nasty....they r creepy...they hold such a darkness...that even sent chills down the local villagers...no1 went to that well...not even the most learned and educated...
and yes...she fell into that blessed well..not knowing the consequences of her faulty action...
at first...she was unconscious....and then...she awoke...the the blinding darkness she alwayz wanted to avoid..like that was her only mission in life...and now..she was stuck there.....

she cried for help...yelled a bit...cursed a bit too...
"god damn!!! why doesnt any 1 come to help me????"

and then...it was dawn..and by some crazy miracle...3 tribal women came and look down...and in shock ...they saw the girl....she begged them to let her up...and for a moment...once the left for a while..she thought she was saved....and then...to her shock...they placed a stone lid onto the well...
surrounding her...was nly the darkness she tried to push away for all her life....

god knows for how many days..she was in that well...the water she drank was the same water she gave out....she felt sick from inside out...
she felt lost..lonely...and confused....
"if only...there was some1 to get me out of this darkness"
those were the last words she said before she died.....
if only...there was som1 to get me out of this darkness.......

to the moon and back...

there was a girl...who like any other girl..loved to dream..and wanted to make a diffrence in the world...she packed her bags..and without telling anyone from her place...she took off...and went to the nearest bus stand from where buses took off to distant lands...there were many people around her...who like her too..had a dream..or who were sucessful in persuing a dream and now their life had no more meaning...in short...every1 who stood near her were in need of an adventure which wud change their life forever...or at least momentarily...
the bus blew its first horn..it was time to go.
the bus driver was a wierd man..every1 said...as when a passenger asked amiably,which route the bus will take...all the bus driver said was"we r going to follow the moon,whose light and guidance will lead us along the path of our destination."
and thats what they did the whole night,they followed the moon...heading from darkness to light,from ignorance of the past,2 persue a better brighter future,yet trapped in the solitude of d present.

the bus was crossing a bridge and from the window,the girl saw a 40 watt bulb light hanging from a small single boat alone in the vast black sea...she thot how similar her life is to that lonely boat,whose purpose was also to seek an absolution from the solitude,seeking for that other lighted boat across the dark sea...but cudnt find any...
"if only i cud see...if only i cud find...",thot the girl....
and just as if the man sitting next to her read her mind,said,"you dont always need to search for your soul in some 1 else, you knw, my friend,lonliness is just a state of mind,my friend...its us who can get rid of that feeling or let it take over majority of our thoughts...your own arms shud keep u warm on cold and lonely nights.im not saying man can live to b a lonely soul...and thats why god made friends...who can turn out to b our only saving grace...that lonely boat u see there,isnt actually lonely u knw...that light emitted from it shows that the persons heart is full of hope and faith..and 1 day...if its in his destiny,he will find his other boat...however...even if he doesnt...he shudnt lament on the fact..and shud carry on wit his life...and looking at a fisher mans lonely life..im sure he wont have any problem.."
he said a lot more things...sometimes deviating from the topic of discussion,he forced upon her...however..what she did remember was a statement he made towards the end ....
"my child,god made us all alone...only to seek a purpose...our other half...some of us are lucky to find purpose sooner than others.the others...will face a tough path...yet when they find what they truely were searching for...the fruits to their toil are more satisfying...more contenting...so my dear child...seek your purpose..and god bless you...for i pray for ur goodness and life...."