Hot and cold

Everything hurts more when its cold,
a cool winter day, you left , untold,  
I tried 2 say goodbye, despite my hearts scold,
Everything hurts when it's cold

A frozen tear, failed effort to be bold
Painful joints, I already feel old
No room 4 growth, not even mould
Everything is gloomy when its cold
     
Heat of your fingers, arms embraced
We loved despite inhibitons we faced
Time 2 leave, dreams await to b chased
In the warmth of my heart, you're always placed

Will always cherish our memories of gold
I'll never ask how our story will unfold
Summertime will tell, patience on hold
For it always hurts more when its cold

Looking Back

I walked, crossing unknown bridges Leaving it all behind, burning memories with torches Forgetting it all , I dint mind, Little did I have a clue I looked back and only saw you

Came snow, came spring In my hood I began to think What is it in u that I need to cling, Wondering, trying to find a link Realising, the reason I feel blue Is that I look back and only see you

As I watch each snow flake melt And leaves fall to the ground Before looking at how I felt I locked a part of my heart, safe n sound Beginning each day, afresh and new I still look back and only find you

if eternity was a bridge

if eternity was a bridge
i would call out to you
to come join me
by the banks, near the stream

i would write you a letter,
filling it with all my hopes and dreams
voice it out to the winds,
hoping you would hear it sing

if eternity was a bridge
across the banks would be you and me
if time had to stop
then ill stop it at a moment of us

if letters held a tear
then tears ive cried many
if each prayer asked for peace
then peace ive got none.

if eternity was a bridge
would you meet me halfway through its end?
would you hold on
when the bridge breaks away?

the stream of my hope does flow
like water through my toes that soak
a conscious soul is a boat that floats
across the strait of life and beauty

if eternity was a bridge
across the banks would be you and me
would you meet me halfway?
or cross over and find me on the other side?

Why do you stare?

i walk the same path every day
i wonder what you think
when you have your eyes on me
why do you stare?

our core essence is the same
brown hair, brown eyes, olive skin
what of me amuses you?
why do you stare?

i take one glance at you
what do you have to say to me?
i wonder, as i silently pass
why do you stare?

i feel your eyes on me as i go by
never to leave my body
i walk, your eyes follow
why do you stare?

leave me,
you are no friend to me
just a stranger with a passion
why do you stare?

this lust you harbour
will get you nowhere
why do you still stare stranger?
why do you stare?

dillusional as you are
you will get no heart of mine
let go , stranger
why do you stare?

why do you stare stranger?
why do you stare?

my home

this is my home
but i dont recognize it anymore
i left for the attractive unknown
opportunities behind closed doors

i made you my home
but i left you a long time ago too
i wonder that when you truly come
will i be able to recognize you?


this was my home
but i dont recognize it anymore
the warm breeze, the minerets with its dome
evening prayer, memories behind a closed door

i made you my home
your wild spirit, set me free
yet i longed for more, the world i wanted to roam
i left you , for me



why do i always leave?
oh! the impermanence of me
the nature of my humanity i believe
will leave me alone with I, my and me.

Phantom Heart

this phantom heart of mine,

for him, it silently pines,

waiting for the space to heal

like an amputated limb, why do i still feel?

i try to remember his face,lost in my memory

lost is the details, no more clarity

i try to remember his smell

wondering if thats the place my emotions dwell

ive got to be selfless for him

to not love him based on a whim

ive got to be selfish for me

maybe its my only way to be free.

maybe he was just a dream

no reality connected to my thoughts stream

there is an emptiness in my chest

where the hopes of us used to nest

no memory left, his existance beginning to disappear

one day we will be strangers, i fear

then why is there a crushing feeling in my heart?

which died when he left, when we fell apart.

this phantom heart of mine,

for him, it silently pines,

waiting for the space to heal

like an amputated limb, why do i still feel?

You, Me And The Sea.

(photo courtesy: Jonno)

you once asked,"where are we going?"

"to a place of light", i said giggling

in motion, we sing

to me,with love, you cling

on the sand we spread a sheet,

holding hands, our eyes meet

the wind in our hair, the interlocking of our feet

"is this a dream or a moment of heat?"

you then asked,"is this what it is to be happy?

i dont know, everything in life is temporary.

though i wish this moment will always be,

the thought of , you, me and the sea"

the lighthouse shining at a distance,

each moment, highlighting our presence

sitting there,we take in each others essence

embracing our time of innocence

you then say,"stay with me.

loving you is like being free

i wish this moment will always be,

the thought of you, me and the sea"

i smile, as you touch my knee

true bliss will be ours,eternally

for this moment will always be,

the thought of you, me and the sea.