deal or no deal

looking back on the past couple of days...i realized how wierd life could be....sometimes i think i am the luckiest girl in the world...and the other times i think that i am walking towards my own doom...somtimes i think i have nothin to loose...and other times i think...ive lost all already...so much so ...that i have nothin to give to the world..what could i possibly give?...im a recluse...an exhausted commodity...
how could anybody be so confused?? i thot confusion was ment for teenagers...spare me that shit..etc

though i guess life has just started....confusion is just part of the deal..??