Looking Back

I walked, crossing unknown bridges Leaving it all behind, burning memories with torches Forgetting it all , I dint mind, Little did I have a clue I looked back and only saw you

Came snow, came spring In my hood I began to think What is it in u that I need to cling, Wondering, trying to find a link Realising, the reason I feel blue Is that I look back and only see you

As I watch each snow flake melt And leaves fall to the ground Before looking at how I felt I locked a part of my heart, safe n sound Beginning each day, afresh and new I still look back and only find you

if eternity was a bridge

if eternity was a bridge
i would call out to you
to come join me
by the banks, near the stream

i would write you a letter,
filling it with all my hopes and dreams
voice it out to the winds,
hoping you would hear it sing

if eternity was a bridge
across the banks would be you and me
if time had to stop
then ill stop it at a moment of us

if letters held a tear
then tears ive cried many
if each prayer asked for peace
then peace ive got none.

if eternity was a bridge
would you meet me halfway through its end?
would you hold on
when the bridge breaks away?

the stream of my hope does flow
like water through my toes that soak
a conscious soul is a boat that floats
across the strait of life and beauty

if eternity was a bridge
across the banks would be you and me
would you meet me halfway?
or cross over and find me on the other side?

Why do you stare?

i walk the same path every day
i wonder what you think
when you have your eyes on me
why do you stare?

our core essence is the same
brown hair, brown eyes, olive skin
what of me amuses you?
why do you stare?

i take one glance at you
what do you have to say to me?
i wonder, as i silently pass
why do you stare?

i feel your eyes on me as i go by
never to leave my body
i walk, your eyes follow
why do you stare?

leave me,
you are no friend to me
just a stranger with a passion
why do you stare?

this lust you harbour
will get you nowhere
why do you still stare stranger?
why do you stare?

dillusional as you are
you will get no heart of mine
let go , stranger
why do you stare?

why do you stare stranger?
why do you stare?

my home

this is my home
but i dont recognize it anymore
i left for the attractive unknown
opportunities behind closed doors

i made you my home
but i left you a long time ago too
i wonder that when you truly come
will i be able to recognize you?


this was my home
but i dont recognize it anymore
the warm breeze, the minerets with its dome
evening prayer, memories behind a closed door

i made you my home
your wild spirit, set me free
yet i longed for more, the world i wanted to roam
i left you , for me



why do i always leave?
oh! the impermanence of me
the nature of my humanity i believe
will leave me alone with I, my and me.

Phantom Heart

this phantom heart of mine,

for him, it silently pines,

waiting for the space to heal

like an amputated limb, why do i still feel?

i try to remember his face,lost in my memory

lost is the details, no more clarity

i try to remember his smell

wondering if thats the place my emotions dwell

ive got to be selfless for him

to not love him based on a whim

ive got to be selfish for me

maybe its my only way to be free.

maybe he was just a dream

no reality connected to my thoughts stream

there is an emptiness in my chest

where the hopes of us used to nest

no memory left, his existance beginning to disappear

one day we will be strangers, i fear

then why is there a crushing feeling in my heart?

which died when he left, when we fell apart.

this phantom heart of mine,

for him, it silently pines,

waiting for the space to heal

like an amputated limb, why do i still feel?

You, Me And The Sea.

(photo courtesy: Jonno)

you once asked,"where are we going?"

"to a place of light", i said giggling

in motion, we sing

to me,with love, you cling

on the sand we spread a sheet,

holding hands, our eyes meet

the wind in our hair, the interlocking of our feet

"is this a dream or a moment of heat?"

you then asked,"is this what it is to be happy?

i dont know, everything in life is temporary.

though i wish this moment will always be,

the thought of , you, me and the sea"

the lighthouse shining at a distance,

each moment, highlighting our presence

sitting there,we take in each others essence

embracing our time of innocence

you then say,"stay with me.

loving you is like being free

i wish this moment will always be,

the thought of you, me and the sea"

i smile, as you touch my knee

true bliss will be ours,eternally

for this moment will always be,

the thought of you, me and the sea.

silly horescopes

i have learnt to stop believing and hope
in these silly little horescopes
for life is never a plateau,always a slope
never give up, nay, nimmer , nope

the inner strength to carry forward
a bright future,to look toward
the past gone, never look backward
even in bad times you've seen or heard

i have learnt to love and care
peace to a lonely heart is to share
a beautiful smile, is what i've learnt to wear
even while my heart supported an unmended tear

dawn upon a day with no pain
the sadness from which you've learnt to refrain
follow the road even in pouring rain
for you have a lot left to learn and attain


i have learnt that  perfect love is sacrifice
the more you give, it never does suffice
dreams never go away , bad or nice
for our actions,we always pay the price

a blooming flower faces wind and heat
just as a turmoiled heart as it beats
push your barriers ,through the concrete
till you find a place where you and your wishes can meet


i have learnt to stop believing and hope

in these silly little horescopes
for life is never a plateau,always a slope
never give up, nay, nimmer , nope

Loveless letters

Here I am, again writing a letter to you
Of a feeling, that never felt more true
You say, get well soon, like I'm suffering from a flu
Take a hint, if not a clue

These loveless letters to you, my dear
Will never be answered, it's so clear
Lying forgotten in a pile, I fear
Each asking if you would ever come near

I look, I watch, I wait
For the postman everyday at the gate
For never a letter came my way till date
Why is your heart filled with so much hate?


These loveless letters to you, my dear
Will never be answered, it's so clear
Lying forgotten in a pile, I fear
Each asking if you would ever come near

Each memory written, each moment did I compile
In columns n rows, rows n aisles
Each emotion held, like a child so fragile
You say, juvenile, juvenile , juvenile !!!


These loveless letters to you, my dear
Will never be answered, it's so clear
Lying forgotten in a pile, I fear
Each asking if you would ever come near

The countless amount of stamps
Tears that made each page damp
Page after page written in the midnight lamp
So here I sing, with my guitar n it's broken amp

These loveless letters to you, my dear
Will never be answered, it's so clear
Lying forgotten in a pile, I fear
Each asking if you would ever come near

Hope floats in my hearts winter
From darkness to light, light to summer
Somehow one day things will get better
You smiled, as you read my letter

These loveless letters to you, my dear
Written to you, month after month, year after year
Each asking if you would ever come near
Might one day bring you here.

Star and heart

                                                   

If my heart had a song to sing

Wrenched out, a sad song it will bring

Wrapped in the madness  still lingering

About a star who wouldn't stop shinning

The heart asked her star in song

"When will we truly belong?"

"Why don't u go drown?"

Said the cold star with a frown

Chugging his whiskey and a shot of malt

Star said, "you're the reason I'm such a mess, it's all your fault"

The heart took his bitterness with a pinch of salt

Putting her dreams in a little box,to a halt

Years passed, star began to wonder

"Is it true, did distance make heart grow fonder?"

Curious, he decided to go visit her

Wondering again, would she give him the cold shoulder?

He found her,  the place they first met

"Now this is the part I don't get"

Heart mused, " I wondered if you did forget"

"You still so shiny my star, you haven't aged yet"

"While I was away, did you have your love's fill?"

Star asked, hiding a spinal chill

Heart said,"oh! with all this time I had to kill,

Nay, niet, nimmer, nill "

"I feel guilty" star shook his head

"Things will get better",heart said

"What about all this dread?"

"It fades away, as far as I've read"

Star asked, "will things get better?"

"My love for you will never deter"

"But people always leave, as I always see"

"Hope for the best, and let it be"

If I had a song to sing,

It would be a song of star and heart, shinning

Wrapped in love,so everlasting

And all the happiness It did bring .

Sexy lil tandarts

I wrote a poem for a friend the other day. She's Belgian. It's funny how a small word could lead into an idea for a poem and how an idea can be formulated into a fun love song. The term 'tandarts' means dentist in Belgian/Dutch. I hope you like what you read.

I may not be that lawyer smart, 

or enjoy Belgian tarts, 
but will you give your heart,

 to your sexy lil tandarts? 

I'll draw u a sexy dental chart, 

take you shopping to wall-mart, 

but babe, don't play with my heart, 

coz I'm your sexy lil tandarts !!!! 

I'll buy u a personalized bullock cart,

I'll still love you even when you become an ol' fart, 

don't go breaking my heart, 

coz I'm your sexy lil tandarts, 

your beauty is my paintbrush's art, 

you've got me pinned with your charms darts, 

oh! So open your gorgeous heart, 

for a love story with your sexy lil tandarts!!!